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Why Loved On Purpose Exists
Because sometimes believing in God's love and feeling loved by God are two very different things.
Loved On Purpose was born in the midst of grief, pain, and suffering. In seasons when loss felt relentless, prayers seemed unanswered, and faith offered more questions than comfort.
It began with a search for God.
Because suffering had made it difficult to recognize His presence, understand His love, or reconcile that love with the reality of what was happening.
That search led back to Scripture, to the lives of people who knew anguish, loneliness, fear, disappointment, and despair. People who wrestled with God, questioned Him, cried out to Him, and discovered that His love was not reserved for the moments when life made sense.
We don’t pretend that faith makes suffering disappear or that every painful story ends with a miracle. We believe something worth holding on to, even when life remains difficult:
God’s love is not dependent on our circumstances. And even here, we are loved on purpose.
Meet Amanda St. Fleur
The heart behind Loved On purose
Hi, I'm Amanda St. Fleur. At least, that's the name I've chosen to share my stories under.
I started Loved On Purpose as a personal project. I wasn't trying to build a brand, start a ministry, or become a Christian author. I was simply trying to find my way back to a place where I could recognize God's love in my own life again.
I've always believed in God. But after years of loss, grief, physical pain, and suffering, I struggled to reconcile what I believed about His love with what I was experiencing.
I had lost people I loved deeply. One loss seemed to follow another, and I never really had the opportunity to grieve. I was always the strong one, holding things together and comforting others, even when I was falling apart inside.
I had to be strong
No one seemed to care how I was feeling, how I was coping, or whether I was okay.
So I carried my grief quietly. I prayed. I begged God for mercy. And when the suffering continued, I struggled to understand why.
Even going to church became difficult. I felt like an unwanted child, watching others celebrate the love of a Father whose affection I could no longer recognize in my own life.
In the depths of my pain, the last thing I wanted to hear was "God is good," "God loves you," "Give it to God," or any other church speak.
I knew those words. I'd said them myself. But I couldn't see evidence of God's goodness in my circumstances, and hearing them didn't make the pain any easier to bear.
Somewhere in that struggle, though, I began returning to a truth I had always believed:
God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. If He loved me before the suffering, He hadn't stopped loving me because of it.
So, if God loves me even here, in the valley, what does that love look like?
Because whatever it looks like, I was having a hard time recognizing it.
I began remembering the stories I'd learned through Scripture, but looking at them differently. I thought about the people God loved despite their failures and imperfections. The people who suffered, questioned, made mistakes, or struggled to understand what He was doing.
I began paying closer attention to how God revealed His love through His relationships with them, especially in their most difficult moments.
What did He say to them? How did He respond to their suffering? What did His love look like when their circumstances didn't change?
And something unexpected happened.
For the first time in a very long time, I began to feel His presence. I began to feel comforted.
I recognized something of my own experience in those bible stories. People who loved God but still suffered, questioned, and struggled. People whose faith didn't spare them from pain.
Their stories reminded me that suffering and being loved by God are not mutually exclusive.
I didn't have to pretend everything was okay to believe that God is good and that He loves me.
He is. And He does.
I'm still searching, still healing, and still learning to recognize God's love in difficult circumstances, even when I don't understand what He's allowing or why.
And I know I'm not alone.
Why I'm sharing this journey
I know there are others who believe in God but struggle to feel His presence. People carrying grief no one sees, people exhausted from being strong for everyone else, and people who need more than familiar expressions of faith that don't speak to what they're actually experiencing.
Through biblical storytelling and reflection, I want to explore what Scripture reveals about God's love across the fullness of human experience, through suffering and joy, failure and forgiveness, uncertainty and hope.
I also hope to learn from others who are further along in this journey, whose experiences and understanding might help me see what I haven't yet discovered.
I don't have all the answers, and I won't pretend otherwise.
But I believe there's comfort in exploring Scripture together, discovering how God has loved His people through every season, and learning to recognize that love in our own lives.
My hope is that somewhere in these stories, you'll recognize something about yourself, discover something new about God's love, and find comfort in knowing you're not alone.
I hope you'll join me.
With love,
Amanda St. Fleur
LOVED ON PURPOSE
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